Its one of those conversations which will always be incomplete, simply because the questions asked will always be unanswered. It can also be termed as one sided conversation – where one is allowed to throw questions after questions because for every answer there was one more question.
I was the silent spectator of this conversation, yeah silent I was, as I was not supposed to interfere. But even if I wanted to be, I would have found myself grappling with right words.
You don’t believe me?! Huh!! Witness this conversation and then tell me!
Girl: How can I believe you?
Boy: Coz I understand what mistake I was doing, and I can assure you that it will not be repeated again.
Girl: You say this everytime? But you repeat it again and again
Boy: You know how much I care for you. I am just worried about you. And you have always known how possessive I am. But I will change myself for you. Will never make an attempt to stop you from doing anything you want – let it to be drinking, partying every now & then, coming back at wee hours!
Nothing is more important to me than you. And even the slight thought of you going away, it kills me! I swear from the bottom of my heart, will never do it. I assure you.
Girl: Why should I trust you?
Boy: Silence. More Silence. She is waiting for the answer.
Why should you trust me!!! Err..aahh..you should trust me..mmm..ummm.. because we have been together for 2 years now. I never cheated on you.
Girl: Dont say all these big big statements. Give me exact reason (1, 2, 3…), why should I trust you?
Boy: We have been together for so many years, wasn’t that trust. How can I provide reasons that why should you trust me!
If I jump from the fifth floor, will that be enough a reason for you to trust me
Girl: See. That is you. You have no reason to support that you will never repeat it. Stupid. Yes stupid you are. You can only think of such stupid act. I am already pissed and swamped with sorrows, and you are not helping either.
Boy Pleads again.. swears again…pleads again with more gestures..tears rolling down!
Girl: Give me reasons why should I trust you. And then I will take my decision.
Boy: I have no reasons to put forth to make you believe. Its only my love for you which I put forth for you to trust me!
Girl: If you can give me reasons to cry, then you should as well give me the reasons to trust you.
No Answer from the Boy.
Girl: What?
Boy: I am sorry. Please don’t do this. I said I assure you that it will never be repeated.
Girl: You are not sorry! You are just trying to save the situation.
By this time, I could see the real essence of the conversation. When you don’t want to accept anything, you will never accept it. The best way is to play around with words, make one more question out of the answer. Not only make it a question, but a question for which there is really no answer.
I stood up and hinted the boy that there is no point in discussing this further. He was still trying to answer, but may be then he also realized that it will be eventually turned into another unanswerable question. He looked at her with remorse and uttered “I love you. I still love you. I have loved you from the very first day I realized it. There is only one thing I can say …… I love you from the bottom of my heart! “
On our way back, the Boy answered the last question..but to me.
“Yes, I am trying to save the situation so that every morning when I wake up I don’t want to see anyone else’s face. Yes, I am trying to save the situation so that I want to be besides her every night when I come back home. Yes, I am trying to save the situation so that I can’t see myself spending my life with someone else. Yes, I want to save the situation as I would like her to be the centre of my life.
How would you know that I am sorry until you want to accept it?! And she says that I am trying to save the situation.”
I mumbled to myself. This conversation would always be an unanswered conversation for the girl. She may be happy, atleast of the fact that she won in every question she threw and the boy din’t have any answers to them.
Well! If only she would have heard the last answer. But the question still lingers, whether she would have thrown yet another question, only to find the Boy lurching again for an answer!
i wud not like to be in such a situation, not even as a spectator … how did u manage to keep ur face … er … normal dude?
nyways check my latest post …
Hey Shubh: This incident is a fiction but inspired by real life scenario.
But the conversation was almost like this! What is important is to figure out the mindset..I mean how can one prove that to make her trust him!
very realistic witnessed two such real life incidents myself: once face to face and another time on a conference call. it feels yuck and very awkward plus I was also told who am i to speak… so i guess you handled it much better.
Hey Debi,
Thanks for stopping by and commenting 🙂
I agree..its a real awkward situation where one just dont know what to say, to whom to say!!!
I can visualize your stand and thought process. So what you did finally?
Just Loved the narration Dude…. Awesome..
I really feel that Its only when one is actually part of such conversations, does he / she realise what his/ her actual worth is…
All I have to say that the Girl missed out a GEM, coz of her own self desires… And I bet there will be situation where she will be left without answers.. But the only difference is she wont have answers to the raging questions within herself…
Any ways rocking post bud…
Cheers…..
Ashwin
@ Ashwin: Very inspiring comment buddy!! I am glad you liked it.
Yeah, you are correct about the realization part. However, how does it matter to the guy when she wont have the answers to the raging questions within herself!!
Well, we will keep this at this level only otherwise our discussion would be never ending 😉
why are ur posts becoming more serious day after day … growing up?
@ Shubh : 😀 😀
Well, kinda!! But hey, everyone grows..rite!! 😉
Actually, my posts reflects my terrible mood swings. But you know what, I have little toned down now..if you dig into my older posts…few of them are actually dark!
Will soon be back with some “not-so-serious” post!! I hope you will not run away till then !! 😉
awww….the Boy said such a sweet thing..but..err….to the wrong person 🙂 He should have said it to the Girl and then seen her expressions!!
Nice Post…first time here 🙂
@ Saima:
I am really glad that you liked this post.
I visited your blogspace…and I shd say that such comment coming from bloggers like you, is very encouraging for new bloggers like us 🙂
So hopefully my space is good enough for you to visit second time as well 😉
He definitely said it to the wrong person..but had he said this to the Girl, she would have thrown yet another question!!!
no man, won’t run away even u write dark posts … 🙂
Thanks buddy!! 😀
Dude… yet another good post from you… could relate to wat it was like, having being in situations like the one u wrote about…
As Ash said the girl missed a GEM of a person… Nontheless someone better is waiting for the guy… so no worries 🙂
@Zack: Thanks buddy!! I sincerely hope you were the third party in that conversation.
Well..I so agree with Ash too…..this guy deserve a better girl!!! 😀
hey,it was quite very touching.. and yeah,the girl definitely missed someone who loves her eternally.. but a broken trust is hard to regain..how could she trust him if he was found to break it everytime?
@ Gayathri: Agree with you Gayathri. The girl did miss! Strange decision people take !!! 🙂
Hmmm…nice point you pointed out…trust is hard to regain. May be this place was not enough to point out what the girl meant as the “broken trust”.
Just to give you a picture..it was definitely not related to infidelity or cheating on her! So it was not that serious as “broken trust”.
Alright,may be this broken trust doesnt relate to any kind of infidelity or cheating..but can we blame the girl if she applies the small thing in the bigger picture? suppose your girl is found doing something which you obviously dun like,say getting drugged,just for instance..and you express your disagreement and she out of her love, promises to abide by you..but how would you feel if you find her breaking the promise everytime and getting back to her old habit?if it were me,i would either feel indignant,and have no prominence in the person’s life..or i would feel the one is not to be trusted..either way,would you feel the relationship worth carrying on? i dun know..my relationship theories are all just ‘theories’ yet..
@ Gayathri:
I will not refute your thought…coz what you saying is right in your opinion as well..after all thats why we say that relationships are so complex!
There are other important factors that keep the relationship ticking….love, care, etc rather than bringing these small things into one and giving it a bigger picture. Certainly, I would be upset that my girl is unable to keep her promise..but I would not walk out of the relation citing these reasons and putting this perspective as a bigger picture.
What if she loves me crazily…I cant say that how can I trust you that you love me…coz you said that you will never drink again and doing it everytime. errr!! Isn’t it?!
This discussion would be never ending…coz relationship is such a thing where individual perspective is so dynamic and different and we change according to the situations. But hey, I can still take a head-on discussion…I love debating! Lets do it over the chat? What say? 🙂
ahem ahem..someone loves debating!! :D.. yeah,i dun mind!
@ Gayathri:
Yes..full on! 🙂
So soon you will receive an invitation for the heads-on discussion. 😉