A noisy ringtone jolted me up from my deep slumber.
“Hello”, I mumbled. I was too sleepy to even open my eyes and glance at the flashing number.
Silence.
“Hello”. I uttered again, a little louder this time. There was no voice on the other side. I was about to hang up when I heard the sound of long & deep breaths. There is definitely someone on the other side. I slightly opened my eyes. I heard the breathing sound again. Its familiar, it is so much familiar! But I was unable to recollect. I let it go and asked, “Who is there”?
“Hi”, a female voice echoed.
“Hi. May I know who this is?”
“I know its been really long, but I am sure you can never forget this voice.”
I was stunned. Of course I recognized this voice. I was too stupefied to react immediately. I waited for my nerves to calm down.
“ I don’t know I should have called you or not, but if I wouldn’t I would have regretted my whole life. I will not play around with words and will confess with pure heart. I am sorry; I walked away from your life without giving any reasons. I dint have the courage to face you, I dint have the strength to answer your questions. Its been 3 years now and there had not been a single day I dint think about you. You there?
My voice quivered. It cracked. I managed to say yes.
“Before you ask me why I left, let me tell you that it was entirely my mistake. I judged you wrong, I judged our relationship wrong. I felt we were not at the same level. But I was too scared to tell it to you, I was afraid you will break down and I would not be able to take it. You being in front of me would have made me weak.
I never forgot you. You have always been there with me. I realized that there could be only one for me, and it is you. I want to be there with you for my entire life. Please forgive me and accept me. I know how selfish this can be. But you loved me so much and I know you still love me. Don’t you love me?”
I could hear her sobbing. I know her better than I knew myself. And I know that she really feels what she is saying. I vividly remembered how a single tear in her eyes used to affect me. I cant see her cry. I still cant see tears in her eyes.
“Please don’t cry. You know I cant see you in tears.” I finally took control of me and spoke.
“I have no issues with you. I am hearing your voice after almost 3 years. And the fact is that your voice still moved me the way it used to.”
I lost my strength. I lost my voice. I found myself in tears. I couldn’t speak.
I hung up.
I believe its too late now. But the fact still remains intact. I loved her. Do I still love her?
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Breaking up is hard I guess. It’s not easy to just shake off the past ,all the good/bad memories and move on.
@ Sheba:
Yeah very true. But thats the normal course of life. Its definitely not easy…but according to me ultimately and eventually one moves on. Its just a matter of time. What you say?
Yup, true. One may feel like its the end of the world after a fresh breakup. But if you’re strong enough, then eventually you do move on.Time heals all wounds!!
Bingo Sheba!!
dost is this true?… my consolation with you…. she broke up JLT without even tellin you..you toh must hv tried to reach her somehow na?
what happened then? oh sorry i think i am intruding too much(am I?)
Hey Debi,
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No buddy..you not intruding too much at all (isn’t this comment space meant for that
Hmmmm…..its true but definitely combined with an element of fiction as well (the tag says fiction as well)
Then nothing happened…as usual…moved on in life! And I am so glad I moved on.
Worry not buddy…it happened long ago and I am mast in my life.
Yes u do. Very much u do
Good luck pal.
@ Rani:
Well….i dunno what to say.
But it really does not matter now. I have come a long way now.
sob sob …
Shubh:
I think I should do away with such kind of posts….should not make you guyz feel low about this.
Dunno, why I came up with this…..though I did add loads of fiction here. Its again bcoz of those quiet nights when sleep just eludes me.
Yes, you do!
Something to cheer you up on “A rose is a rose is a rose!”
Check it out
Hey Shipla,
Well….everyone is saying I still love her. Okay! That is a different story now.
Checked the post. And there is only one thing I can say…cheers to our new FBs!!! You rock lady!
Thanks so much for considering me a part of this fabalous group.
This is what I was contemplating to do after Shubh’s award…..and there you go…couldnt have been better than this.
Your post really lifted me up.
** Amrit just performed his trademark dance step** !!
Lovely post.
buddy, could u just wait till August … terribly busy with booking tickets, and college stuff … plus i won’t see my family till next yr summer … once i land up in BITS shall take this forward …
@ Shubh:
Sure! You going to BITS…thats great!! Lemme know when you get free.
When are you leaving?
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he he…..did you see the “fiction” at the end of the post!
I wish you still love her..
Well Gayathri…why do you say so?
**Amrit is looking for an argument yet again with Gayathri**
Dont you think that it is not correct on her part…she should not have called back at all!!
hehe…arguments..
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well,see,i’m of the opinion that once u fall in love with a guy,he has to be the one for you always..whatever the dissents be,it must be settled by talks..and howsoever u differ,love should be intense enough to traverse all those.. so in this case what i would feel wrong would be the decision to walk out of the relationship..not the calling back..
if i were on her shoes,i would certainly have called back,may be it would take far lesser than 3yrs for me to realise that i miss the guy though..
Well..it seems right if you are in her shoes….but if you put yourself into the guy’s (oh me!) shoes…how would you justify what he would have gone through…when she felt that it will not work out..she left..and then one day she felt that he is the only one..she wants to come back..I mean..comeon!!! Love and all is fine…but is this what love is??!!!
Dude… I am sure walking out of your life was not easy for her as well…. I know how difficult it would ve been for you… remember that she mite ve gone through the same, with added pain of guilt…
Now the courage she has shown to comeback is commendable… not many is as brave… trust me on this dude !!!
True that 3 years is too long, but that period made her realize the strength of the love and bonding you guys shared… it is evident how much she mite ve been thinking about you both…
Someone send this lyrics to me sometime back… just shring the same with you ;P
You don’t know what you’ve got until you lose it
You gave me you-your love but I abused it
And now I’m sorry for the things I didn’t say
`cause I know now I acted in a foolish way
You don’t know what you’ve got until you lose it
You gave me you-your love but I misused it
I never knew how lonely loneliness could be
And now I need you, dear, as you once needed me
So now if you’d come to this lonely heart you own
I’d give you all my lovin’ like you’ve never known
You don’t know what you’ve got until you lose it
You gave me you-your love but I misused it
And now I’m sorry for the things I didn’t say
`cause I know now I acted in a foolish way
Zack, I concede!!
But lovely lyrics !!! Absolutely apt!!
Hmmmm… Now… where s de climax????
Do U still love her?
Zack….I think I should let the ending in question mark itself?? No climax…no endings…its unanswered….you see
Hello…Was that fiction??????
Not entirely…but yes some element of it..but the essence of the story was not fiction…i think these emotions are too precious to term as entire fiction.
nice new header …
Shubh….thanks boy!!! I tried working towards the review you gave….I dint want to do away with this entire template…so thought I should work on the header. Next time the header would be even better….may be I would need your help
Pal, I think if what u mean is to write about something in your blog, its alrite. Do not directly copy -paste stuff if it would appear as yours. If that’s not the case, jus go ahead and surprise me
Copy & paste…I would never do that
Used to do that in my MBA days 
Well..you will get the due recognition for picking up the content from your blog. I dont believe in piracy
And i really dunno if it will surprise you or not…but it will surely be a feel good factor. Lemme know
tagged thee again … amen
have tagged thee again … respond for thine own sake … amen …
Shubh, shall do that!!! Atleast I have to do that for my sake
So that make the total count as 3
2 from you and one from Shilpa.
Gosh!! I need to be buck up!
what is wrong with ur comment form … or am i hallucinating? WordPress seems to think that 14 July came before 13th and two, they didn’t post my first comment and so I wrote a second one … and now see both of them … i tell u … its all jinxed …
errr….I did change few things for my comment section..made it a nested one too see the reply under respective comment!!
Jinxed…he he!!! Let me figure this out…I am still wondering which comment settings was better – previous one or this one??!!
Do you still love her?
well..that would be a question you and only you will be able to answer
Wishing you all the very best in the life ahead:)
Indy….very true…and I think I know the answer.
Thanks so much for the best wishes!!! I always need this in abundance
And aapka naya post kab aayega??
Hi Everyone,
Pyaar ke liye do pal kaam nahi the,
kabhi hum nahi the..kabhi who nahi the
Hi Amrit,
You are very good in expressing yourself ..Good Job done